For over 13 years I have been in an abusive relationship. Because my partner is a hero in both the law enforcement community and military, no one believes what he is capable of in our home. For years I prayed for his miracle, but one day with no warning he left me with a mortgage, bills, home, 2 ill parents and more than I can handle. Yet the abuse and its effects still continue. The worst part is that all attempts to find help or move on seem to fail me, since everyone sees him as a hero and me as the person who left him! I love my Lord, but my heart is so broken by the physical and emotional pain that I have endured. I just turned 40 and feel I need a miracle to feel God's love and purpose for why this happened to me. Please pray that I understand why people I love hurt me and that I can learn to have faith in and to love again.